It’s been a bit

Well I guess it’s been a lot longer than I thought since the last time I felt like writing anything here. Not really felt like there was anything to really talk about that other people weren’t already discussing. Not to mention the fact that things have been quite hectic at work for a while, and I’ve had to take on a bit more responsibility than I thought I would get. Mainly being put in charge of a few projects here and there, not as a manager, but just having to be in charge of a couple people. That’s been interesting, and challenging at the same time. I’ve also been dealing heavily with health issues and depression. I’m on several different medications now, and honestly most of the time I’m not at work I’m vegged out on the couch because I don’t have any energy to do anything. I’ve still been … Read more…

On Friendship and What It Means To Me (More Mental Health stuff)

So, I have been thinking about this today, and maybe a little bit over the last few periodically. And that is that I’ve been trying to think of what kind of friend I am to people and the kinds of friendships I have. To me I have various levels of friendship or relationships with people. And that sounds like a jerk thing to say, but I mean that is something I feel is true for everyone. You’re not friends with every single person you know. So for me, and this is where most people land for me, is a general acquaintance. This usually means I know you from somewhere, or we have hung out through a mutual friend but I don’t really know you that well and we don’t really talk much. Like I said, this is probably where a good half of the people I know fall. Most of … Read more…

On Mental Health Stuff

So, the last couple of weeks have been pretty stressful and difficult with a few notable exceptions. So I figured that maybe it’s time for a bit of a update, but also just to type stuff out to make myself feel better. This isn’t gaming related so feel free to not read it. Lately I’ve been talking to a friend of mine who has been pointing out that a lot of the problems I have seem to come from not knowing myself very well, or from self confidence issues. I tend to worry about things a lot, and even minor things can stress me out. I wouldn’t call myself a perfectionist, but if I mess something up I tend to stress out to the point of getting sick. I worry about all these little things that some people might think are silly. I worry about what people think of me, … Read more…